Tuesday 27 June 2017

The week of surprises! #6 of the US of A & I.

I reckon I've been the closest with the trees, the sky, the wind and sunsets more than I have ever been to any human. It was time for one such day, that belonged to just the world and I.
Boston Harbor Walk.



What a vortex of amusement the ocean is. So mighty, so calm, so unpredictable, so certain and yet uncertain. Sometimes, just like us. As a brilliant approval for the day in my head, this one particular Seagull that I try to capture through my lens looks at me, stares into my soul, as if it knew me, who I was, what bothered me and several other secrets/thoughts that I assumed were only mine. A plethora of sonder around me. In ships, cruises, children & their tantrums, the dogs & their curiosity, me and my beautiful day.



It was one of the warmest day of my time in Boston. So much, that there was sweat in that East country of absolute cold winters. And? And, there was the rain. Dripping out of nowhere. Boston does a Bangalore at times, isn't it?
As it gets darker, I remember a certain river that caught my interest. The Mystic River. Quite obvious, isn't it? I set out to find the Mystic river, with my companion as the Maps, the Microsoft Maps, mind it. After several minutes of doubting my plan, halfway through home, I decide to go anyway. Already lost to a good enough level, I might as well do some more of what I put myself through, right? After fighting with the setting sun to hold on until I reach the intended to get the best view of the setting sun, an hour of walking with several epitomes of ache in my leg and the unbelievably hot Boston evening, I reach the Mystic River. My kind of river. How secluded, calm, full of trees, trails, birds chirping, colors in the sky, fear in the heart as it darkens. Trusting the maps once again, I reach home.




Next, Castle Island, South Boston. Boston does a Bangalore again. Terribly cold weather. Freeze the poor hands to come back home. Meanwhile, the Atlantic. Again, and again and again.



The ever so incredible Sanders Theatre. The long wait in line to get our tickets, with the proud Harvard IDs that we carry. We always bagged attention, you know? A bunch of 11, from every corner of the world, always stuck together, predicting people's origins and bringing the rest of the world to ourselves.


As it was the last week, the heart craved to gobble up every opportunity to remember Boston much more. It's places, food, strangers and me in it. Revere Beach, Downtown Boston. Red line. Blue line. Green line. Growing up without the sea close b, every time I get a chance, I run to the sea/ocean. As though it were my lover. So strong, vulnerable, cold. This Boston for me. A wonderful stranger that caught me off guard as I was on the way to get some essentials. What a beautiful conversation that was, I hope we meet again, or rather not, so I could always remember how beautiful I felt, how warm that moment was.

The last few days. One constant rant on my mind. Sylvia Plath. My urge to visit the place, she was born in, grew up in, where she wrote her first poem, where she WAS. I start on this journey alone. Google suggestions to reach the place, taken. Red line, green line, lost, red line again, needham line, which I never found. Finally reached Jackson Square, 15 mins away from my destination.Beautiful graffiti everywhere. Weather gets bad, minute after minute. Strong gutsy winds that push me away. Walking had never been this tough, I wonder what it is like in the poles, in Antartica, in the tornado, the core of it. Such a struggle. My hands begin to numb even with the gloves and stacked into the warm jackets. I walk, with this fraking unreliable map (maybe just today). The temperature was -10, felt like -30, which was getting worse that I had to decide quickly on going back home or collapsing.


But, Sylvia was here. She might have probably walked here. A quick coffee break to decide on what had to be done. Caramel Macchiato and I, such a love story in America. I ask the guy at the counter, about my destination, the distance, the whereabouts. He says, 'Darling, you need to get back home, the weather is dreadful.' And thus, ended my craving.

However, there was something lined up to make my day. The T at Davis, is out of bounds. Harvard and somewhere far. A Columbian and I smirk at America. At the train that goes off time and again. At the temperature dripping minute after minute. We go together, on our struggle back home. Such a sweetheart. She doesn't know English. We converse using the Translator app on her phone. Davis finally. The shuttle indeed gave a different perspective to Porter Square.

And slowly, yet very significantly, one by one, we pack, we leave, back home, empty house, empty cupboards, empty rooms, it ends here. The hard goodbye. The best team I have ever worked with, lived with, fell in love with and pampered and smothered by all the love.
Goodbye, my lovers. Goodbye Trull Street, Goodbye one stranger I met everyday who made me blush.

Somewhere up above--
Yes, the same Cabin crew story. The inevitable cabin crew and their charm.
The conversation that Reigh (Cabin Crew) and I had, tops all the conversations I have ever had, I would definitely go to Europe, to Berling, just for him. For that happiness, demenor and charm. Meanwhile, these women! Who have to interrupt beautiful moments, and my Berlin kanna had to get back to work. Yet another beautiful woman from Germany, who was going home to surprise her sister, since she is having a baby. Such wonderful crystal eyes she had. Complimenting her was how we started talking.

Next, the 7 hour layoff in Germany.
Books, eavesdropping, jet lag, home on my mind.
And, this beautiful human came to me. To meddle up every question I ever had, to smirk at my quick wit and his ever so thoughtfulness on every topic we spoke about. So much, so that, a restless guy had to shush us.

Flying time, home bound. With this marvelous company.
Caught these rocky mountains that have been escaping for so long.
That's an end to the journey of US of A and I, as YET. :)

The sixth seven days, noons, evenings and nights were, in all its glory, wrapped into these words-

In certain urgency, of time, space & people, magic happened. 

© Deekshita 
   (Just grateful and happy.)

 08:15 pm, Bangalore.
10:45 am, Boston.

Thursday 22 June 2017

The week of finding home miles away. #5 of the US of A & I

The flight back home.
To where? Home. Boston.
The day Boston felt like Home.

 The Atlantic is so enticing. The several different strokes of blue. The cloud play; above and below. The barren brown land turning into that of snow covered path, as the flight progresses; as we come closer to home.






For someone who loves the sky so dearly, isn't flying a gift in itself? We flew in par with the half moon. What a moment of absolute exuberance. Could it get any better? Well, it sure did.


The ever so charming pilot does a perky plan.
"Welcome to Jamaica, ladies & gentlemen."
With a brief few seconds of confusion & the surge of laughter that followed, he added happiness to our day. That wasn't all.
"Thank you for flying with the love airlines. Love, love, love.
(singing amicably) Love, something, something, love."


Very much impressed, we applaud.
Indeed, these pilots are nothing short of super-humans, in grace, charm and sense of humour.












I was so glad to be home, to my people. The change of emotions on their face the moment they see me after almost a very long week, is priceless. So incredibly beautiful as to how few weeks ago, they were only strangers, and now? My people. People I come home to. A long walk with my favorite human from Germany. A conversation that helped both of us in volumes. Perspectives on how the same problems, uncertainties, happiness-es exist across time zones. Caramel Machiatto and Ice cream with toppings at J.P.Licks to welcome both of us back home. The walk that cleared up so much for me. And, it seemed like, this evening, Boston was glad to have me back as well.



The coffee craving hit a real high. However, coffee before bedtime worked very well in exhibiting its caffeine characteristics, couldn't sleep until 2 am. The moon plays peek-a-boo. My companion for the night. The Boston Moon. And I. Our fears, thoughts, beauty, sleeplessness, restlessness, our greatest of stories, the Moon and I. Meanwhile, I fall asleep, to wake up to the day light break in. How the light of the moon disappears, rather fades out, when it knows it isn't special or absolutely necessary anymore. Just like me. Sometimes, I wonder how terrible we are, the Moon and I.

The Boston subtle winds are beautiful & soothing. Like a lullaby to my sometimes aching soul.
These subtle winds that tricked me to get out of the house without the layers of the clothing. And, I walked as though I were taking a walk at Cubbon Park in Bangalore. Yet another short yet amazing conversation with a stranger. The walk back, with several conversations in my head (yes, I have conversations with myself.), dreams, aspirations and all that. I'm slightly falling in love with the Boston sky; something which is a dull; heavily studied with rain or clouds or colors. In its own beautiful ways.


Lamont! Oh dear Lamont! How beautiful are you? If only you were a person instead of a library, or maybe not. Amidst me trying real hard to work on my research, several books from the shelves gaze at me. Succumbed to writing postcards for my lovers back home, the Bangalore home. Explored a little bit of Harvard Square with my beloved who calls me a Narcissist. The sudden surprises from the street arts. The beautifully decorated shops with lights, colors, warmth and love.


Spoke to the Happy man near the T(rain) station. Asked him if he could paint something for me that would remind me of this place, of his happiness. Told him how he lights up the entire square with his music on the otherwise grim street. He was overwhelmed. The next day-
Him: Hello dear!
Me: Heyyyyy
Him: Yes? Tell me.
Me: You forgot something.
Him: My bad. I'm so sorry I forgot about it. I'm going to do it right now. Sky, Colors. This place. Right?
Me: Yes sir! Absolutely.

Walked back home, curious about what he would create for me. How relaxing it is to walk alone at night. " I want to be able to sleep under the open sky, travel west and walk freely at night." was my wishlist a while ago, and now, it was all that I was doing.

And, viola! Look what my Happy Man created for me.



One of my lovers is leaving today. We all dress up at our very best to seal all the memories with pictures. Hundred million pictures, as my exaggeration goes.

The fifth seven days, noons, evenings and nights were, in all its glory, wrapped into these words-

To express in smiles, conversations and colors; the greatest gift! 

© Deekshita 
   (happy with the monsoon showers, reduced mind conflicts & celebrated gratitude.)

 04:54 pm, Bangalore.
07:24 am, Boston.

Sunday 11 June 2017

The grotesque us & the rest.

In moments of absolute inclination,
proving to be unnervingly long,
is when I admit to myself
between this struggle of holding on or letting it go,
That there is no escape whatsoever.
Like a child,
Entitled to forgiveness, love, care
attention, tantrum and more,
You are to me
Irrespective of what is or what will be.

I wait, as if the sea
could make my decision for me,
Of a million lives lived,
and a zillion moments made,
Does all this matter?
The poetry, the prose,
The deed, good & bad.
The empathy, the sympathy,
The success, the set back,
Does it matter to the cycle of life?

The lion, the deer,
The fly, the electric squatter,
The wind, the dust,
Is life as we know it,
An art of vain?
This mad coupling of hope and effort?
In which we merged and despaired?
Amidst questions, set rules of life,
yearning, letting go, you & i,
In words the 'now' points.

© Deekshita 
  torn between putting the mind to rest from all the questions and not wanting to do the same. 

17:01 
The Eleventh of June '17


Monday 5 June 2017

The week of Sonder. #4 of the US of A and I.

After a whole lot of the unknown that was slowly turning into the known, it was time for a bigger known, family. The week of Kansas. Another time zone, another city, another set of surprises.

Coffee had never felt so good.
In sickness and snow.
Like this pen friend of mine had a poster for me, which said- Coffee, when your brain needs a hug. :)
After much mental debate over taking an Uber or The T to the airport, Uber it was, eventually proving to be the best decision I made that day.

Melanie.
What a beautiful woman! We started off our conversation about travel, the small travel and the thousands of miles one. About freedom, snow, India, America, so on and so forth. As much as she was glad to talk to me, so was I. After a lot of mind rambling that we were upto, she said, " How politely and poetically you frame your sentences." It was time to end this conversation, this beautiful moment, in order to create some more. As I waved her goodbye, she said, "Be open to everything that comes your way. And say to yourself, let's look where it takes me. "

As we were preparing to take off, the remnants of the snow alongside the runway seems like a blanket of moon on earth. Maybe this is how it feels to be on the moon. The city is a marvel of brown. With outlines of white, alluring to be explored, to be described, to be loved.


And now, I had hopped across yet another time zone. Kansas City. The sheer happiness from this favorite Nephew! The warmth of family and being spoilt with love for the next few days, was all I had to be ready for. Good weather, good history, good food, happiness and chaos. A drive to the Kansas State University. What meant the world to me, a few years ago, so much so that, most of my passwords were the KSU! How time plays the trick. How I had to give up on KSU, only to be here, years later, at Harvard. I connected the dots, that day.

Some major motivation from an animated movie, " According to all known laws of aviation, there is no way that a bee should be able to fly. Its wings are too small to get its fat little body off the ground. The bee of course, flies anyway. Because bees don't care what humans think is impossible."So, I turned a bee. Lot of moments to possessing childlike happiness with the lovely nephew and niece. The importance of just, 'being'.



We chase the sunset, on one beautiful day. Drive along the high way, state line, some brilliant color play in the sky. The lights from the vehicle compete against the light from the vanishing sun. How incredible the sidelined trees look upon the touch of the evening sunshine. As if, those leafless trees had lost nothing at all.


A beautiful couple at the Shawnee Mission Park. Probably in their mid 60s. They unpack their lunch, sit towards the lake, eat and talk with a whole lot of laughter. A companion by them, a ever so active dog. What a long life they must have spent together. A beautiful one.


Easily, there is so much beauty in observing people and things around you. Not just that glance and look - observe, rather a very intense, story revolving around those places, things and people.

The fourth seven days, noons, evenings and nights were, in all its glory, wrapped into these words- 

Going back to the known, to know more about the unknown in known. 

© Deekshita 
   tired of the summer, happily going back to what was in Boston and what is in Bangalore. 

   16:37 pm, Bangalore
   07:06 am, Boston